Fall is my favorite time of Year so................. why am I in such a funk a fugly fugly FUNK? I have so much to be grateful for and I am so very blessed to have such wonderful life and family. But for a little while now I just cant seem to love me or get out of this slump! So I'm writing and crying to see if it will help me feel a bit better! So excuse me while I try some of my own therapy! Sometimes I feel like I have know one but yet I am surrounded by people. I don't really talk to anyone about how I'm truly feeling or whats going on with me myself and I. I think a lot of time society has a lot do to do with how I am feeling. Women have a lot of pressure to look and dress a certain way. I hate it I wish I didn't care what people thought when they looked at me but I do and when they do I always go right for the worst. I think that they are thinking wow did she even look in the mirror before she left the house! I just don't know how to fix it! I will just keep on going and try to work on it. I hope that I haven't made you all think I totally lost my mind.
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Oh, I don't want you to be sad! I really, really hope you know you can talk to me about anything or just cry for no reason and I promise not to judge--you know that RIGHT? I go through 'downer' times too. I love the fall, but I think this is also a time when I start to feel a little like you are. Maybe it all stems from my anxiety of going back to school or something?? I think it's part of life as a mother, wife, housekeeper, cook, employee, friend, sister, etc, etc. There is so much to try to keep up on and it really gets to me sometimes. Actually, I get overwhelmed a lot. And what is this about not 'looking in the mirror before you left the house'...now I have to say that is a little crazy. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! And you look perfect everytime I see you! Not that you should have to try and look perfect, look at me, I don't try! Let's hang out more and I'll let you take lots and lots of pictures of us together while I'm 50 pounds heavier, maybe that will make you smile? Sounds like you need to go get yourself a Starbucks and a good book and hide away from the world for a bit. Or how about a GNO, I would LOVE one and you know once the baby comes I'm not leaving my house so now would be the perfect time! Call me!
Don't worry; be Happy! Audra- You are a beauty inside and out! You are a great mom. You always have such nice things to about about anything and everything. You are truely one of the NICEST people I know! =)
You are tired of waiting for another Twilight movie. That's my theory.
Well I'm pretty sure I feel the same way! But your so beautiful and unique! Best mom ever award! Even if no one else does (which they do!) I'm a lycan I'm a lycan you a lot! Love you! Just smile and be happy! I would be if I had a daughter like me! Haha jk! (you know what kind of voice) I luh you!
First I want to tell you I LOVE YOU! I know I need to tell you that more. I also want to tell you I know how you feel. I think we all feel judged by people. But I think we have to think of it as what makes those people so great! LOL Everyone has issues in life thats what makes us US! Right! You are a wonderful, beautiful, smart, funny and a loving person and even though you look great it is not just that part of you that makes you GREAT! Its all of those things combined. I am thankful you found Kirk. He is so much like Justin because he is your best friend and the one you tell all your secrets to. The one person in this life you can count on. So just remember you are loved.... Everyday, every second no matter what your hair looks like!!! I love you Em xoxox
Flann, Thank you so much for being such a great friend and yes we do need to hang out more. I do know that I can talk to you about anything and I think I was just down in the dumps I have been feeling a lot better about things!
Kristi, Thank you for saying all of those wonderful things about me! It really helped! :)
Al, Yes I can't wait for New moon I miss my Edward!
Em, let me just say that I LOVE YOU TOO!! I am so very thankful for your comment. You are such a fabulous sister and I so wish we could hangout and be around each other more! I truly am so grateful for you and love you and your family so much!! I also think Kirk and Justin are our besties and im so glad that each of us has such wonderful husbands. I really appreciate and love your support! I love you xoxox Aud
Hi Sweetie, I haven't read your blog for awhile and I wish I had so I could of responded to this sooner. I think its so normal for us women to feel the way you are right now, I just think the world of you, you have beautiful children, your such a wonderful mother, and you have a husband that adores you, and a body I would die for. Ive come to learn that the people we think are so perfect and have it all together, don't, nobody is and if they say they are, they lie. Everyone has trials they go threw. Know that I LOVE YOU!!! call me anytime and we can cry together.
Maybe you need to get yourself some Hormones! hehe
Auntie J, thnak you so very much!! And I think I might need to get me some of them Hormones!! LOL thakns for the laugh your the best Auntie! I love you so much! XOXOXOXO
I'm a little late looking at blogs. Audra, We all feel a little down on ourselves at times, but may I say, You are one Beautiful woman, inside and out. You have talent, a great sence of humor, beauty, a good husband, and beautiful children. I adore you!! Always keep that beautiful smile, and always remember We LOVE YOU!!!!!
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